hey, reader.

I like this blog of mine a lot. I plan on keeping it up forever. But I decided a long time ago that I would only post here ever so often. See I write quite a lot, and this blog is the last platform on my list a lot of the time. So the only things that go up here are the things that trickle all the way down and don’t quite fit in any of the other boxes. On this neat little instagram page over here I wrote micro fiction-esque short stories every week (speaking of, next friday will mark the 100th post and the last post in a year of uninterrupted posts which I’m pretty jazzed about!). I also write the occasional longer form short story and submit them to reedsy’s weekly writing contest. I participate in nanowrimo every single year. I’ve written two complete books and have committed to writing a new one each year. On top of all this, I have not one but two journals – one digital and one physical where I write my deepest thoughts and where I channel the crazy swirling chaos in my head respectively.

So what does that leave for this blog? That’s a question I’ve been asking myself for a while now. Up till now it’s been a bit of everything. At times I will distill the contents of a journal entry into a post that is palatable for people other than me. Or I’ll throw up the most recent writing piece I’m most proud of. Or I’ll do exactly what I’m doing right now – something I promised myself I wouldn’t do anymore – which is writing about writing. If there’s anything I’ve learned this year it’s that one of the great vices of a writer is writing about their writing. It’s a clever way to avoid actually writing anything and a prime reason why I’ve very much come to dislike the writing community on twitter. But that’s a post for another time.

The purpose of this post isn’t to bemoan the aimless nature of this blog. There’s a commonality in the different kinds of posts I put up here. It’s that I post here when there’s something I really want to post about. That’s very special to me. Not to say I don’t often have things I really want to talk about. But my other avenues of writing are things I give more of a priority at this point in time. If the time should come that those priorities shift, than perhaps this blog will look a lot more like my journal. Or my writing instagram. Of course this all means that this blog won’t be growing in popularity any time soon but that’s fine with me. I guess this was just a long-winded way of saying I don’t post often here cause I don’t prioritize this blog right now, oops.

Moving on, there is in fact something I wanted to say this evening. Thanks to wordpress’ extremely useful insights, I know that there are a few people who check up on this blog like clockwork every few months. This blog’s been up for a while, and I’ve definitely shared it quite a lot in the early years. Nowadays I tend to keep it more to myself, but I have a hunch that one or two of the regular readers are people I know personally. So I wanted to write this post for that person (or people). I don’t know who you are, but I hope you’re doing okay. I say this with all the love and kindness in my heart; I wish you all the best.

It’s not often I’m afforded the chance to talk to someone I know anonymously like this. And I’m not the greatest at talking about how I feel on the day-to-day. But I will say this, there’s not a single person I can think of who I don’t wish well upon. I really mean this. If you have ever been in my life, even to the smallest degree, I wish all the best for you. Full stop.

Maybe you’re someone I already talk to pretty regularly, in which case shoot me a message if you’re reading this ya fool. Know that I love and care about you deeply.

You may be someone I don’t talk to very often. Something I’ve tried to make an effort in doing for a while now is reconnecting with people like you. Doing my best to let you know that I hope you rock it in all of your endeavours and that I’m rooting for you even if I don’t always make it clear that I am. There are people I’ve reached out to who haven’t been keen on re-adding connections into their life. If you’re one of those people – guess what? I care about you too and I still hope you succeed in all that you do. If you’re someone I haven’t reached out to, the same applies to you and it’s only a matter of time before I let you know personally!

Finally, if you’re someone I haven’t talked to in a very long time; someone who may not be in my life at all anymore. Just know that I think the same of you too. I hope you’re doing well and I hope you get everything you want out of life. All of us are the sum of the people we meet after all. I couldn’t be who I am without you.

Though, you might just be someone who hopped onto this blog looking for this post I made a few years ago about Attack on Titan’s 3rd Opening Shinzou wo Sasageyo, which has been weirdly popular lately. If so, hi!