Except it’s actually July 21st. And in fact, it will likely already be July 22nd by the time this post goes up. Which is very similar to the scenario I found myself in whenever I decide to put up another blog post. Continuously putting it off until the thing I want to write about is barely even relevant anymore. At any rate, here’s the reason July 20th is a happy day for me: It’s the day I share this image of Jackie Chan on my facebook timeline.
Some other links and updates include this happy story of a child who blurted “wow” at the end of an orchestral performance, the fact that this weekend I’ll be participating in my very first spartan race, the nintendo switch lite announcement which has me pretty excited to pick one up, that app I talked about last post is up and running at last, continuing to write on the instagram page as always, and finally, you know, general every-day life changes that nudge me closer to becoming the best version of myself I can be.
During my last blog post I talked about generally being on the up and up. While that mostly continues to be the case, it wouldn’t be right to omit the pretty intense bouts of self-reflection I’ve gone through in between. Unlike in the past, the low point I’ve recently experienced came not as a consequence of my own actions, but rather a natural valley of somberness that counteracted the high hills of personal satisfaction I’ve been climbing up since the beginning of the year. If you’re interested in experiencing a similarly strange, sad and ultimately fascinating journey then do what I did and ask yourself this — are you happy? But don’t be content with just one answer. Starting from there, answer as many questions as you can.
If you ask yourself ‘am I happy?’ you might come up with an answer of some sort. From there, ask yourself the question of what IS happiness to you. How do you quantify it? How would you know if you’re happy? Do you think you could be happy and not realize it, or even more commonly – could you be unhappy and not realize it?
This line of questioning and reflection will lead you into a rabbit hole. It’s what happened to me. I found it liberating in a way though. See it was scary that the farther I went in the more unsure I became. But now I know that rabbit hole exists, for me at least. I’ve revisited it a few times over the course of the past few months, each time peering a little bit deeper, each time more equipped. Until eventually I started finding definitive answers in myself.
I understand a lot of this is vague. It’s sort of intentional, I just want to bring you up to speed to where I’m at today. Happy, and sure of it.
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